I wrote this piece at the end of my first semester of seminary. I thought I would re-post it after I began my first week of my 2nd year. Enjoy!

tonight i realized i grasp god,
creature has roped the creator

i’ve cut god up into bite sized bits
i’ve filed him away in little drawers
i’ve cataloged him
i’ve labeled him
i’ve mastered him

like a naked David statue,
out of granite my god i have chiseled

i am michelangelo

but that’s the irony
it is not god i grasp,
the god of abraham
isacc and
jacob

i grasp
the god
i’ve chiseled

i’ve not unearthed
yahweh

i’ve crafted
yahweh

out of systematics
biblical theology
greek and hebrew lexicons

out of positions
and titles
responsibilities
and roles

i have fooled myself into believing
that the god i’ve crafted
is the god of the bible

and it’s left me arrogant
rather than humble
it’s filled me with words
instead of wonder
i talk and speak and think about him
rather than being and living and walking

it’s left me wanting
it’s left me dry
down to the
bones

lord
the real god
the god-with-us god
who invaded this world
in a wooden box
and left it
on beams
of execution

replace my chisel and hammer
with brushes and air
to unearth you
and discover you
rather than
create you

lord
may i be a child again
may i come to you with
cupped hands
may i speak to you in
hushed tones
may my understanding of you
ever shift
may i sit before you in
wide-eyed wonder
and may I discover you
a new

lord
make me a child again